miyoungi yahhh...miss u damn much!!!

Dear Miyoungie yahhh...

miss u like crazy~~~
why did u go?
im sorry for being d worse frenz for u...

but...
i try to move on...
im not angry with u...
why should i???
u have done nothing...
im d wrong...worse...bad...etc...<u can call me what u like silly!

here...
i wanna tell u some bad news...
our maknae cought a fever...
i had sent her to d clinic...
guess what???she still not recovered yet...
im just patiently waiting her recover soon...
it might be good if u can be by my side now...
but...i have to accept the fact that we are not mean to be together anymore...

next...T_T
our oppa also sick!
2days ago...
ive sent him to the specialist...
the specialist said he.....
i dont know how to explain it...
but it just what u need to know he are really that sick...

now...i realized something...
you guys made my day almost everyday...
but!  what did i had give to you guys???
NOTHING!!!
i am such a jerk...
who ignoring all of you all this while...
just make use of all of you...
pls forgive me!!!

i know that u had decide to leave me...
thats mean you will not turn your head back...
i need to accept that...
i hope that our maknae and oppa will not leave me...

really3 hope!

i try my best to change who i am...

although you hate me...
please pray for me dear...

im on my way to get my new bestie...
i hope that i can get someone like you...
who will be by myside everytime...
but not leaving me behind...
aigosshhh its not your faoult...
ok im sorry again for put the blame on you...
mianhaeyooo chinggu yahhh...

i hope that you are happy now...
please be a good girl ok!!!

promise me~~~pinky promise!!!

Dear Mom...

 

last night...

my mom touching with me...

its not that i does not wanna call her...

it have crossed in my mind...

yeah...

its just not my routine and habit...

to show my love...

act like a tough one...

yet a silly one...stupid and damn it!!!

and sometimes...

when i called her...

she said no need...

ur credit will finished...

eitherwise, im not a person who like to talk in a long time at the phone...

more prefer face-to-face conversation when it comes to my family...

so,

i just taought it will be ok...

seems like it will be no problem...

cause almost everyweek i will be back to my home...

but not for this final week...

and already texting my sis to said it to my mum...

and she said:  OKAY!!!

then...thats it...

omg...

suddenly...

my bro said my mom mad coz i didnt call her...

my sis texting me also said it like it is...

then...

i call her...

unfortunately, she was praying at the moment...

im waiting several minute waiting for her by just talking with my insane sister...

then she pickup the phone...

why u call now?

is it you who want me to call???

then, when i call why you asking me?

ahhh...you just bz until forget to even call me...(its not like that mom)

er....do you come to the pasar tonight?try to change the topic...

duno...if someone wanna go...

then...bla bla bla...

lets end the conversation here...

if u doesnt want ur credit to be finished!

rrr...bla...bla...try to make the conversation longer...

but...

right now...

im also d one who touching...

she keeps remind me to finished my conversation...coz d credit...

its not becoz d credit mom...

its just not my habit...

i just not know how to show my love...

all i know is saranghae...

i'll find it awkward...

to say it or even show it...

im sorry for become ur 

bad doughter...

all i know is...

im very very very love you!!!

thanks god that you are still alive...

i just hope that i can back home soon...

and let me make you forget all ur mad...

hopefully...

i'll manage it!!!

amin...

T_T

KENAPA AKU BUANG MASA SELAMA NI?

BIASALAH...
BILA TIME3 EXAM NI...
OTAK MULA BERBICARA...
KENAPA LAH AKU TAK STADI DARI AWAL SEM???
ATLEAST KALAU AKU BUAT NOTA DARI AWAL SEM, TAK PAYAH WAT UJUNG SEM...
AKU BOLEH GUNA TIME TEST N QUIZ LAGI...

TAPI...
SEMUA PUN TERLAMBAT...

RASA MACAM DIRI INI DI SABOTAJ OLEH OTAK SENDIRI...

KENAPA?

AKU SEDAR BETAPA PENTINGNYA MASA TU.....TAPI MASIH BUANG MASA...
BUKAK FB...LAYAN VIDEO...GAME...FANFIC...SEOLAH-OLAH TIADA HARI ESOK!!!

AKU RASA AKU TAK PENAT...TAPI AKU DUDUK TERBARING TERBONGKANG...
PEJAM3 MATA...BERANGAN...PIKIR MENDA3 TAK BERFAEDAH...
BILA LETIH...NAK STADI PUN TAK BOLEH...

AKU DENGAR ORANG DISKUS PASAL KOS3...
NOTA ITU...INI...YANG NI MASUK...YANG TU SUSAH...
AUTOMATIK AKU JADI MENGANTUK...MALAS NAK AMBIL TAHU...
SAMPAI LAH DI AKHIR3 AMBANG PEPERIKSAAN...

KESIMPULANNYA...
SALAH OTAK AKU KE???
HATI AKU???
BADAN AKU???
EMOSI AKU???

YANG PASTI...
SEMUA PUN SALAH aku...

SAJA KECIL KAN FON aku TU...
SEGAN DENGAN DIRI SENDIRI...

BILA OTAK CRAMP

TAK TAHU...

SAMAADA OTAK AKU MEMANG BETUL-BETUL TAK SIHAT...
MACAM KENA VIRUS...HANG JE...
BACA SIKIT...DENYUT3...
BACA SIKIT...TAK MASUK...
SENGAL...

ATAU PUN AKU YANG GEDIK EXTRA MALAS...
BACA SIKIT...DENGAR LAGU...
BACA SIKIT...BARING3...
BACA SIKIT...BUAT ITU DAN INI...MESSAGING!DAYDREAMING!

TAPI YANG PASTI...
KEPALA AKU MEMANG SAKIT...MALAH SANGAT3...
AT FIRST INGAT TAK CUKUP TIDUR...
COZ TRY COVER TUK OB HARI TU...
WALAUPUN TAK SEHEBAT ORANG LAIN STAY UP SAMPAI PUKUL 4...
AKU CUBA UNTUK TIRU...BETUL R ORANG KATA...
IKUT KEMAMPUAN DAN KEBIASAAN DIRI SENDIRI...
TAK BIASA JANGAN BUAT...TAPI MASA TU AGAK TERDESAK COZ RASA OTAK MEMANG BANYAK KOSONG LAGI...2 PUN ADE YANG MERAPU JE...

TAPI SEKARANG PUN APA GUNANYA...
REC...BANYAK GILA KOSONG...
TENGOK PAST YEAR...TERNGANGA...
TAPI MEMBER KATA...SOALAN TAK DA YANG ULANG SETAKAT NI...
SO, BESAR KEMUNGKINAN YANG DUK TERNGANGA TU TAK MASUK...
TAPI YANG TAK SEMPAT TERNGANGA TU DAH KHATAM KE WAHAI DIRIKU???

TRY MY BEST...
DUN BE TOO HARD...PUSH MYSELF MAKE ME WORSE!

aktiviti di waktu senggang antara 2 kritikal final exam paper...

BARU LEPAS PAPER OB TADI...
KESIMPULANNYA...ADA YANG TARGET MASUK, MASUK N BYK YG XMASUK...
YANG TAK FOKUS PULAK YANG BANYAK KELUAR...
NEVERMIND....MENDA LEPAS JANGAN DIKENANG...

NEXT PAPER...THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW...
HARI NI LEPAK DULU...REFRESH...DEFRAGGG MANE YANG PATUT...
KALAU NAK CATCHUP 1SEM PUNYER SILIBUS DALAM MASA 1 HARI...
TRY R BUAT MACAM SAYA....


HAHA


SO, SEKARANG?
LAYAN.....DUK SEARCH TAENY AND JETI...
LINK PLAK DENGAN VIDEO NI...
LAGU THE BOYS- SNSD...

DAH LAMA LAGU NI TAPI TAK PERASAN PULAK INSIDEN NI...
MAKLUMLAH TAK KHATAM SEMUA COZ AGAK BZ DI UJUNG SEM YANG LALU...

 

GIRLS!  B BRING THE BOYS OUT~~~
JADI MACAM NI...
GIRLS!  B BRING THE DOG OUT~
WO LET THE DOG OUT! HUH HUH HUH...

ULANG BANYAK KALI PART TU...
MELIHAT MEREKA3 TERKEDU...

BIADAP BETUL INSAN TU...HAHA...

SELINGAN JE TU...

"REFRESH OTAK"

Banyak r pahala orang yang telah menglink kan apa-apa video or apa-apa yang berguna dekat aku...

So, aku nak juga r sedikit sebanyak pahala tu...
Yelah...Itu je kot yang mampu...
Nak berceramah, tak reti...plus aku sendiri bukan baik sangat pun...Banyak kelemahannya...

Nak story panjang tak guna...

Pagi ni bangun-bangun...Pusing sana pusing sini tak boleh tido...
Aku pun bukak r laptop kawan aku...(So, InsyaAllah, dia pun dapat r sikit share saham ni...amin...)
1st buka mesti lah pesbuk...tak sure macam mana...
Ada jumpa link video yang mcm bez kot...
Sebelum tu pun ada jugak selalu timbul nama Ustaz Azhar Idrus ni kat wall fb aku...

Alhamdulillah...Hari ni tangan aku buat menda baik n layan r dari 1 video ke 1 video...

Kelakar r ust ni...at least tak bosan dengar...

something yang selalu aku buat...

aku peminjam ptptn...

dan yang paling aku terasa!!!

Bodo sungguh aku rupanya!!!T_T

And banyak lagi sebenarnya vc ceramah dia yang best3...korang search je nama dia kat youtube...sure berlambak...

Aku sendiri tak pasti boleh follow ape yang die cakap 100%..mcm xmampu...

try my bez cuba mhindarkan diri daripada benda3 lagha yang selalu aku buat...haha

amin...

"Halyu Wave"

Memandangkan minggu kuliah ku yang baru berakhir untuk sem ni (tapi banyak lagi asignment tak submit lagi plus my final examination)<<tak boleh suka sangat>

Tapi sempat juga lah aku meluangkan bukan sedikit tapi agak banyak masa melayan hobi3 yang sebenarnya aku tetap buat waktu sesak-sesak macam ni.

pesbuking...youtubing...searching...song...video...n so on...

Dah tentulah top searching aku related dgn "Halyu Wave"

Sejak bila aku terkena Halyu Wave ni?

sebenarnya dari sekolah lagi...tapi masa tu x keterlaluan sangat...

aku layan je semua cerita yang aku rasa nak follow kat tv...

malay,indon,filipin,mexico,taiwan,jepun etc...

korea xtkecuali r...dia mcm bermusim...

ingat lagi masa darjah 6...

tak suka gila ada kelas tambahan...aku nak tengok Elicia dengan Sebastian...(tak ingat tajuk cerita tu)...petang boleh suruh kawan tunggu jap nak main sebab nak tengok La Usur Padora...

Masa zaman winter sonata=tak layan sangat cerita tu...

tapi Autumn in My Heart...tiap kali ulang, aku tergedik-gedik nak tengok...

Pangako sayo tak layan sangat...Habang Ka Piling Kang plak yang aku layan...

Soda n Ice Tea...Wai Rai High Scool pun best jugak...

ada lagi rrr cerita selain di atas...

tapi Halyu Wave ni lain sikit...

Sejak aku stadi Dip kot aku cenderung lebih nak mencari sumber2 tambahan selain apa yang ada dekat TV...nak cari pasal John Llyold Cruz or Big d2b ada jugak...tapi tak ada lah sampai meleret2 aku boleh layan lagu-lagu negara dorang yang bez tapi tak pernah dengar...jus ost cerita tu je r yg aku tau...

tapi...bila aku search ost korean drama...mcm-mcm keluar...

start tu aku mula kenal super junior...1st lagu aku layan yang tak da kena mengena dgn ost ke hapa ke...>>>Happiness by suju...

Then, masa tu beria r search pasal diaorang n berebut dgn member stok3 jejaka jambu tu...

terjumpa video diorang parody wondergirl lagu no body dgn snsd, kissing you...start tu mula search wonder girl...dalam masa yang sama, snsd jugak...

wonder girl famous rrr dgn no body...tp lagu dorg yang aku layan sikit je...no body, tell me, so hot...yang terbaru be my baby...(2 je r yang boleh maen3 kat otak aku)

snsd mmg melekat r...start dri dorg debut...even bukan 1st n 2bd single pun aku layan...  

baby-baby, into the new world, way to go, honey, oh la la, genie, gee, oh, show show show=byk giler r sampai nak list pun mls...lagu solo pun layan...jessica ft onew-one year later and tiffany-by my self yang paling aku layan r...

lepas tu ada la lagi group3 lain aku layan...n makin lama makin bertambah...

after school...beast...2pm...2am...infinite...brown eye girl...2ne1...t ara...secret... etc...solo=iu...

movie n drama pun aku layan...

makin menjadi-jadi bila jumpa kaki kumpul stok...

mcm3 ada...program diorang pun kami follow...

cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak menjadi terlalu fanatik...

sekarang ni...dengar...tengok...n search jugak r bila ada masa lapang...

tapi da tak berebut jejaka jambu lagi mcm dulu...rambang mata...

sekadar untuk hiburan semata-mata...

n kadang-kadang jumpa juga some value from my hobby ni...

terpulang kepada cara kita menilai sesuatu...

tapi benda-benda macam ni memang merapatkan lagi silaturahim aku dengan kawan-kawan seantero aku...yang bukan Halyu Wave patients, duk diam-diam ok...

before ni aku selalu gak r kene kondem...

"sikit-sikit korea" "tak ada benda lain" etc...

ada???